well mum its getting really hard living life without u . cant belive its nearly christmas and ur not gonna here 2nd christmas without u i miss u so much today im just feeling so lost and so alone like i cant seem to pull myself together anymore people keep saying it gets easier but mum its really not u was and are my world im just finding it so hard cos u know i was with u every single day and how can i except that id never ever see u again i just dont understand and cant seem to except that mum what i would give to see u right now to talk to u for u to tell me everything gonna be ok everyday i wish love u mum with all my heart missing u too xxx